I just learned something new about myself. Wei shu told me before that every man will fall prey to 1 sin. Alcohol, smoking, lust, gambling... the things the chinese believe in. He said that the greatest flaw i had. If not the one stopping me from being who i am, is lust. I always fall prey to women, that's what he said. I've always believed that to have someone u love support you and comfort u in harsh times is the most important thing and without it, there can be no greatness. That's why, I'm always back to where i start. With nothing.

But i have realised. That my greatest weakness, is reliance. I tend to rely on people too much. Rely on my parents when i'm in really big trouble. Rely on weishu to help me with our past business. Rely on ferdinand for encouragement. Rely on si wei to get xuewen's number. And rely on the people i trust my heart with... for support.

Greatness is not built on reliance. Greatness is built on being self sustaining. And on sustaining yourself, being able to sustain and support others. I guess that is a very very hard part of my mindset to change... But that shall be my current goal. To be able to sustain alone. This time, I have to empty my heart out truly... And trust only myself. After all, friends and loved ones are but a passing moment in time. Nothing lasts forever, because forever fades. How i wish that was not true.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 1:41:00 PM